They're gone..... :-(
Well, it is the day after Thanksgiving and my parents just left to go to Virginia and then home. Wow! It really feels lonely and it has only been about 1 minute. The reality of being in Georgia...12 hours from my family....is really setting in right now. I have been up mostly since 1:30 not able to sleep...thinking of what it is going to be like without them being around. I feel awful!
Mom said that she has had a lot of years with her kids around and everyone together. I feel like we totally screwed that up now. I used to not understand why Carolyn wanted to move, but I do love it here. If I could just move my family here, I'd be completely happy. Every time I hear how much Zach misses Ashton or my kids ask when they are going to see their cousins again, my heart splits in two. I feel so awful that we are now so far apart. I never thought I would be the one to move away. I never WANTED to move away...and here I am...away and there's nothing I can do about it. All I can do is hold on to the fact that I will see Carolyn and Jim in December, Risa in January and Mom and Dad again in February or March. What am I going to do without them stopping over just to say hi. Or being able to go to their house with the kids after church. Or having holidays at their house. Get the kids together to play. See the work Eric has done on the houses. Spend birthdays celebrating with the whole family. I am going to miss all that. I don't know how to handle it.
I guess I just have to deal with it. I guess I just have to go on with life...be a mom to my kids, a wife to my husband. I guess I just have to talk to them when I can on the phone, video chat on the computer, send emails and letters, and cherish the times we will be able to spend together. They say, "You don't know what you have until it's gone." I don't agree...I have always known that I have the most wonderful family in the world...but now that I am so far away, I suffer from the ache of emptiness, from them not being right here, so much more. I miss you all and wish we could all be together again. I love you all and am SO thankful that I can call you family.
Mom said that she has had a lot of years with her kids around and everyone together. I feel like we totally screwed that up now. I used to not understand why Carolyn wanted to move, but I do love it here. If I could just move my family here, I'd be completely happy. Every time I hear how much Zach misses Ashton or my kids ask when they are going to see their cousins again, my heart splits in two. I feel so awful that we are now so far apart. I never thought I would be the one to move away. I never WANTED to move away...and here I am...away and there's nothing I can do about it. All I can do is hold on to the fact that I will see Carolyn and Jim in December, Risa in January and Mom and Dad again in February or March. What am I going to do without them stopping over just to say hi. Or being able to go to their house with the kids after church. Or having holidays at their house. Get the kids together to play. See the work Eric has done on the houses. Spend birthdays celebrating with the whole family. I am going to miss all that. I don't know how to handle it.
I guess I just have to deal with it. I guess I just have to go on with life...be a mom to my kids, a wife to my husband. I guess I just have to talk to them when I can on the phone, video chat on the computer, send emails and letters, and cherish the times we will be able to spend together. They say, "You don't know what you have until it's gone." I don't agree...I have always known that I have the most wonderful family in the world...but now that I am so far away, I suffer from the ache of emptiness, from them not being right here, so much more. I miss you all and wish we could all be together again. I love you all and am SO thankful that I can call you family.
posted by Karen @ 3:22 AM
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